Happiness! An Inside Job

Happiness can be elusive, sparked for no reason at all or needing stimulation to become alive.  Truly, happiness is an inside job.  It is always there, waiting to come forth if only we would allow it to flow.  I sit and stare at nothing and can feel the flow of true happiness coursing through my veins.  Other times it just seems to travel on a voyage far from my heart, yet, with one slight manipulation from outside, I find myself gloriously in touch with my happiness again.

I know the truth, I need nothing to spark the feeling of happiness.  It burns within me resting until I notice its presence. Though, I may try to touch it, it is out of reach.

This brings me to the message of happiness.  Happiness is there whether I notice its presence or not.  It is always within me.  Knowing that is enough to feel happy about.
I may feel discouraged, even sad, off my path or in bed with the covers over my head, happiness has not left, it is just hidden by the illusion I have placed on top of it.

"Happiness is an inside job" -  Reminds me of the safe cracker working with an informant- it must be an inside job - Well, of course it is, I am the one to crack the safe wide open and I am my own informant.  If I listen quietly, I will hear the gentle sound of happiness within my soul's song and I have the capability to bring it to the present moment.  I have actually laughed in the moment of tears running down my cheek with sadness and found the happiness in feeling the sadness.  Happiness is everywhere, in every moment no matter what it looks like in our story we have created.

Enjoy! Happiness Abounds....Namaste'

Out of touch!

I was out of touch for some time now and have not felt that I had anything to share.  Though, life has been busy, boring, exciting, loving, sad and distracting, there was nothing I could put into words.  So, here I am to share of what I have learned in this down time, and of course, it is about Balance and finding Equanimity.

More than six months ago I had several things occur, a person dear to me ended our friendship, physical issues arose to a severe point and life changes had me alone much of the time.  My heart was broken and the physical issues showed up to enlighten me that I was not handling it all that well.  At the progression of the health challenges, of course, my emotional and mental states were affected.  Being alone much of the time I struggled between changing my thinking through affirmations and lying in bed unable to think of anything but heartbreak. 

Slowly and with an effort to focus, I kept saying my affirmations and getting out more to enjoy life. My heart has started to open again and I am in a stronger place.  Equanimity is finding its way back into my life again. I am balancing the physical and spiritual realms, lightening up and relaxing, being more active in my creation of my life and trusting more.

When life challenges us it is difficult to keep the balance in our inner state.  It is the courage we use to get through those times that shows us how strong we truly are.  Even when we feel we want to give up, we are still here, so, we are experiencing our strength of courage.  That is equanimity.  It reminds me of the pendulum swing.  It swings far left and then right before it finds the center again.  It is its natural state to swing back and forth.  That's being human.  We will always come back to center if we let our pendulum swing gently to find its own balance.

I feel so truly grateful that the equanimity in my life has come full circle.  I was just taking a deep breath as I wrote the previous sentence and I could sense the Divine within the breath breathing me.  Balance and breath, breath to balance and repeat...Namaste'